The road not taken

Time flies. am here for 4 months plus and 2 more days later i will be back to Kelantan. Couldn't join Penang installation was a shame but study is more important isnt it?

sigh..

for those who dont know, i got an offer from UPM actually and the course they offered me was Aquaculture. I dont like the course hence i rejected their offer. Gosh, i rejected the top 3 university in Malaysia, i must have gone insane!! hahaha, nah.. if you were me, would you like to restudy from the beginning and study the course that you dont like? you wouldnt right?? i rather go back to hell (yea, we refer Kelantan as hell) and further my studies for another 3 more years. Will i survive? of course i will. Like what my friend said, UMK give u lemons, you made them lemonade =)

last hope to get back to KL is hoping i could get the offer letter from UKM. seriously m waiting the postman to stop by my house and give me the news that i want. (*singing* I've been standing here waiting Mr Postman, sooooo patiently)..

oh wait, there is still hope in UPM i assume? haha.. Ohhhh, i shouldn't put high hope on it 'cause I will be very sad if i get negative response. but finger crossed still. lalalalala....

let's see what's the plan from God..

Unspoken

When I thought finally I've some time to update my blog, open up a new post, hands put on the keyboard... Staring on the screen for half an hour or so, MIND BLANK! totally no inspiration at all.. the feeling much like a Alzheimer disease or blogging disability? ohhhhh, at such age! Tsk tsk..


Well, there is nothing much I want to talk about since my mind is still blank, LOL! But one thing in my mind that, m thinking of you. Sometimes m kinda upset that I've become a part of your past, a past that moving nowhere that i could found... I wish I can talk to you, desperately. I typed everything in our chat box when i saw you online, but i just don't have the guts to send it to you because I don't want to feel down when you don't reply me.. i know you will no longer care for me like you did last time..


Since when I've becoming such crazy about you? I don't know.. perhaps the time i saw you treating another girls with a really good care. Is this what they called JEALOUS?? or should i say envy?? i think m having both.. m sorry if i ever made u feel bad when u know I've fall for you, deeply. you're just too perfect for me even though i know all your flaws, but it doesn't really matter for me. You are giving me cold treatment, hoping that I will leave you and find a better one. Isn't it ironic? I ignore (not really ignore) the ones that adore us. Adore the ones who ignore me. Love the ones who hurt me the most and hurt the ones that love me.


However, what i want to say is, because I've hurt so much and m getting immune to it. How sad isn't? Well, that's Virgo. Once we fall in love, we will do anything and everything for the ones we loved. By love, we mean real love, no other type of love is actually exist for us. LOL!  We will be completely devoted and loyal to the one we loved in a relationship. Still, if it doesn't seems working, we will severe all the ties and become as cold as the North/South Pole. This sentence is perfectly fit on the ones I loved right now =( but you know, people do change.. Trusting what is yours will be yours.

a bad day for mum

17.07.2011

Another memorable day for my mum. Mum's handbag has been snatched at Mid Valley Megamall, Jusco Ground Floor. That time we were busy choosing cloths.

Well, when mum realized that her handbag has been snatched, we reported to the Jusco promoters, but they just inform us that they couldn't check the CCTV till we show them the police report. OK, fine!

we went to make the police report and blardy hell, they took us about 1 hour and yet, they r just sitting there telling us "Cik, sabar, kita kena check dulu, ikut procedure, bla bla bla" .. well, this is Malaysia. mum said if it wasnt because she need to renew her IC and car license, she wont has report to the police bcuz we know the police wont do anything!! yea, malaysia boleh..

the time we reported to the police, and 3 ladies came to report to police too. and guess what, their handbag/purse was kena snatched too at the same place samo. One of the victim's son can recognize the thieves' faces (yea, 2 guys 1 girl), but the police said they cant do anything bcuz we dont have a proof!! hey come'on, we have a orang saksi here n yet we cant do anything.... tsk tsk tsk!

hopes that mum can overcome the sadness soon~ and people out there, please be careful with your belongings, zip your bag!!!

You wouldn't see the tears that I cry

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on



Sigh, I guess it's time to get over you
M extremely tired waiting for you
You said you appreciate what I've done
But I just couldn't feel it
I need to give myself a chance to be loved
And also give a chance for those who want to treat me better
It's over..

YNS 2011

All right, I guess I have not been updating my blog after all..

Haha! M just being lazy :P

Newayz, I did save a draft…

Who those who are following me in Twitter or Facebook,

Yes, I just came back from Youth Nation Summit 2011 which was held at UM!

Fun? yup kind of..

Btw, I feel bad for skipping the afternoon sessions with my friends as they feel bored,

neither do I..

still Rotaract is the best for me,

much more organized and we had FUN of course!

all right, cut out the crap..

somehow m inspired by the energetic youth..

They really want to make a different for the youth..

Voice out their opinion to make a better life for all of us..

however, they should also stand on the other way to think of the consequences for what they did,

don't just simply talk without thinking, somehow i just feel that they are too childish!

but i also won't deny that some of them are really good, 

very matured thinking and can speak fluently in English..

I want to be one of them =D

All the speakers are good!

so far i was really inspired by Joel Neoh,

co-founder of Youth Asia..

Do what you want and do not afraid of falling down!

Marina Mahathir and Roslan T. had given their talk as well,

too bad that i went back adee..

our beloved Prime Minister also joined us for lunch on the very last day,

try to spot me in the TVs new =)

overall, i think i failed my social skill..

i just don't feel like mingle around..

Anywayz, for those who do not know what does Youth Nation Summit is,

it is an event organized under the power of Y, an initiative that incorporates the best of youth leadership,

practical industry knowledge and experience through a series of events and programs.

Some of the highlights of the summit are Sustainability Expo, Leadership Activation,

Skills workshops, Youth2Business Forum, Youth2Government Forum, Youth Defined CSR Programs

and Project Pitching where 20 selected youth leaders pith their community-development initiatives for

financial supports. 

The summit is FOC that's why i joined =P

Wants to know more, simply drop by their Facebook fans page =)

Good night